Living in Regret

Making up for what you have done

Without trying to change and not do what you did again

If you keep doing what you do wrong

You will never get it right

You will always be trying to make up for what you have done

You will always be sorry

Running in circles and never stopping

Never truly happy

 

Thank You

Sometimes when I feel sad

And full of raw emotion,

I write and release.

Sometimes when I feel sad

And I write something,

I will read other blogs

And wait

To see if someone will like me.

Then when someone does,

It makes me feel better.

Even if it is just one person,

It makes me feel better.

Sometimes when I feel sad

And I need to feel better,

I know how

To make myself feel better.

Thank you for liking me.

You make me feel better.

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Why can’t I control this emotion?

I turned it off because it hurt

Now I am just dying to feel the joy

While knowing the pain.

It is killing me

And takes over my life.

Why do I let this happen?

There is no way for me to control myself

When I want this emotion.

It is insanity.

I need to stop.

Why do I want this emotion?

I can’t stop the wanting

And I can’t stop wishing.

Yet my life is still in limbo

because of the last time…

 

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My feet are cold.

I found a heater

but it is broken.

I will try to fix it

and maybe someday it will work.

There are many problems.

I don’t know if I can fix it.

There is no manual.

It comes with no instructions.

I have to learn how it works.

Handling it gently

and going slow are the only way.

It is just the beginning.

I have only found the heater a few weeks ago.

Yet I think it’s a keeper.

A treasure that’s been a bit abused.

With a little love and polish

It will be better than new.