Aloha means goodbye

Thanks to all who follow and like my blog. It is time to end this. I allowed my real life to be seen here and it is causing problems. You can thank the morons from my real life who won’t leave me alone. I have to sleep with locked doors and I have to block numbers on my phone. One day, I will start a new blog under a different name and keep it anonymous. Read ya later! Aloha… #miso808

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OMFG

Get the fuck away from me

Calling in the middle of the night, drunk

Leave me alone

Asking if you could see me

NO

Get the fuck away from me

Leave me alone

So you miss me

You didn’t want me

I am better off

So FUCK OFF!

Save your bullshit for someone who wants to hear it

I don’t want you

Grow up and go away

Leave me alone

And FUCK OFF!

This is not a dream

This is a nightmare

Leave me alone

If you come to my house so will the police

And if I don’t beat the shit out of you before they get here

Then they can just arrest you without having to stop at the hospital first

I know how to use a gun too

And I will pull the trigger

So FUCK OFF!

What the fuck is wrong with you

Leave me alone

Seven voicemails in a row

And you think I won’t block your number?

What the fuck is wrong with you

You are not what I want and do you understand why

Cuz you are fucking stupid!

DUH!

Leave me alone

And FUCK OFF!

What the fuck is your problem

OMFG, stalker…

 

 

 

The word begins with F and ends with K then there is the off part…

If I have stopped talking to you then I do not want to talk to you!

If I have not asked for your opinion then I don’t need to hear it!

If I have to tell you to fuck off then understand it is because I want you to fuck off and leave me alone!

If I haven’t told you to fuck off yet then I’m trying to be nice so don’t push your fucking luck!

If you think this is reality then fuck off cuz this is not!

If you still don’t get it then…

Fuck off and leave me alone!

If you think I give a shit about your fucking feelings then get a fucking life!

Do ya get it yet???

If you think I’m a bitch then ya get it so now Fuck Off!

Flying Solo

Feeling the wind and not fighting the direction,

Spreading my wings to soar through the sky.

Flying solo and finding my way,

Guided by stars and dreams.

Sunlight breaks through the dark,

Warming the chill from the night air.

With the light comes hope

And a path that can only be felt

For it is traveled on the wind.

There is no way of knowing what comes,

Only learning to fly through,

Gliding through the soft winds and breezes

While enduring the rough turbulence and storms.

Navigating these are the most difficult

Learning to dive and pull up so as not to crash.

Dodging and weaving to find the way out of the clouds.

Flying free.

Never Looking Back

It is what we know

It is the past

Memories floating in our mind

Drifting in the tide of our emotions

As we swim the seas of love and life to make our choices

Learning to swim through the rough waters

Floating with the currents

Adrift into the future

Oceans of unknown and uncharted water

Dark skies lit by stars to chart and navigate

Sunrises and sunsets to come and go

New seas of love to swim and wash away the fear

Braving the unknown and thinking there is knowing

But there is nothing known only deceptive similarities

Creating imaginary rough waters which uncalmed will grow to tidal waves

All of which are nothing but imagined in the mind

Keep swimming towards the dawn

Brave the night to endure the rough seas of light leading to love

Crickets

Sometimes I look for signs

And I have to laugh now when I think I see them.

I used to think I should follow them

But

I think I see what I want to see.

I let my dreams cloud reality

And I find myself wanting to see clearly

But

I want to dream about you.

I try but I can’t let myself

And I am able to keep control

But

I am scared.

I don’t know what is real

And I want to trust you

But

I am tired of being disappointed.

I don’t have expectations

And I can’t ask you for what I need

But

I want you to know.

I can only hope

And if I believe, desire, and trust

Maybe

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My heart is frozen and numb.

It is hard to be motivated.

Dying inside with a desire to be loved.

Drained of the energy I foolishly gave away.

My heart opened and warmed.

It was ready to hold hands and be held.

Fulfilling a dream to live love.

Without thought of consequence I lost myself in a moment.

My heart aches with sorrow and joy.

It feels again.

Dreaming of dreams lost in tears.

With the ability to find myself and walk away into the cold darkness of the unknown.