Sometimes I look for signs
And I have to laugh now when I think I see them.
I used to think I should follow them
I think I see what I want to see.
I let my dreams cloud reality
And I find myself wanting to see clearly
I want to dream about you.
I try but I can’t let myself
And I am able to keep control
I am scared.
I don’t know what is real
And I want to trust you
I am tired of being disappointed.
I don’t have expectations
And I can’t ask you for what I need
I want you to know.
I can only hope
And if I believe, desire, and trust